Dear all,
now i'm in the mood for 'curhat', lately I've been thinking what should i do for a living. now i work in this financial magazine called Financial Wealth Magazine. I've been there for about 1 year now as the Client Relations Manager. it was a fun job and a lot of experience that i gain from this company. The company is still small but a lot of great people in here and they growing fast.
for quiet sometime, feel like i like it here because the pay was good and i gain a lot of experience and knowledge. but there's time when i feel that i don't want to do this next year. i want to do something that i love which is fashion, music, art, and dance. the thing i concern much is my income, if i resign from this job then i have to (again) trouble my parents, which i hate to do. so i think the best thing is i have to save my money until it's enough then i apply for another job, or even create my own company. i see my self as an entrepreneur, i want to have my own business.
i need to do something meaning full in my life before i get married and have children. i'm still 21 for GOD sakes and i don't want to feel satisfied for what i have now, i want more. i want to see and experience all. Do you think this is too much?
from all my life, i have my parents that tell me what to do, sometimes i want to do what i really want to do. i'm 100% sure that my parents only want whats good for me, and i'm really great full for that. me and my father talked the other night, about new business plan about developing a photography school. i love photography, just doesn't have the time to create more photo to fill up my portfolio. i want to and i feel that i have to. i don't want to work in the office and in the cubicle in my entire life, it's sucks and i can't stand it.
i have this headache everyday in this passed 3 months, and i always have it in the office, by the time i went home my headache was gone, what is that mean?
i want to quit, i can't stand it anymore. i want my fun and exciting moment. i wanna feel the rush in my chest like i used to feel i'm in stage to perform. that's what i want to do. i'm tired, stressed, and a bit unhappy. There's an old saying that if you want to get something, you have to prepare to sacrifice something to.
i looked at college friend who in the same company as mine, she just said that she want to quit, she want to chase her dream now, while she still have the chance. she said she want to go to National Geographic in the creative division. i stood there and i think that she have that goal and she brave enough to pull that risk. so is my boyfriend, i envy him sometimes, he got the job that he loveeee to do. i don't say that i don't, but i think that i should do that too.
I'm a girl that needs to plan everything. i'm a bit up tight sometimes, i admit it.
that's is why, my plan for now is, i have to save money as much as i can, during that i want to develop the Photography School while working in FinancialWealth, then i will resign and be full time business woman and do what i love and it's not going to be in office.
i know it's just my rough plan, and i don't know if it's going to work or not, but i'll manage.
well that's it!, i feel much better now....
Thank you all...
ciao....
